The last post wasn't one of my finest. A recipe resulting from a dash of bitterness and one too many margaritas. Today though, as I returned home from my parents house and picked again at nails (a habit since birth), I was reminded again of the Big Huh. He's once looked perfect on me, but like my manicure he is chipping and fading away. And when the polish on my nails begins to fade, I don't cry and vow never to wear nailpolish again. I realize that's just the way things go, remove the old crusty polish and slap on a new coat.
So this time I want to keep an open mind. I don't want to curse the day I ever dated anyone and sink into a tantrum of epic proportions, causing me to repeat the cycle again in a few months when I've forgotten how disappointed I felt. This kind of thinking only stunts the process and I don't learn a damn thing. And each person we encounter was put here to allow us to learn and experience something, even if it's not the experience you necessarily wanted to have.
I'm still done with online dating for awhile. I'm gaining weight from all the happy hour food during the week and let's face it, that's definitely not going to help me date more in the future! But I'm not done dating. And I'm not giving up. I'm just going to have to trust the Universe has something else in store for me for the time being. I have one question Universe:
What's next?
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